Yes. I disappeared. I did not blog for a really long time. I do promise that I was still mentally present and wishing I had the drive to write something. Anything. When life happens you have hard choices to make. Though, putting the blog and side business on partial hold was a relatively easy decision for me with what was going on at the time. Family health issues related. Those very close to me know what I am talking about.
Work-wise could not have been better. Thriving, actually. I am number two in my team of change specialists in the company and could not be happier. I've continued to develop myself in different facets, listening to highly valuable podcasts, attending workshops and signing up for masterclass to learn from the best.
Last year was a milestone year for me. I did a lot of deep thinking as my bday got closer. I checked my "archives" and current "files" and compared them. I noticed I had veered off a bit from my values, my focus, from myself. I noticed I was participating in the world of distraction and fakeness. That is not me. That has never been me. I am about genuine relationships and simplicity. Nature. The beach. I did develop new friendships and are actively working on adding distance to those relationships that do not bring value to my family. That is why, for my birthday all I wanted was to have the people who make me feel my most genuine self next to me. And I did! It was the most refreshing time I had in a really long time. That was a very important time for me, and my life.
There are so many people out there living superficial lives...and I am not talking about material things. I am talking about living other people's lives instead of their own. Putting self imposed barriers to things. Being passive, people pleasing...lying about their own happiness because of fear. Fear of judgement. Fear of failure. Fear of their own conscious, really. They prioritize the noise simply to avoid listening to their own thoughts in hopes it goes away. Only to find that time does not stop, and neither will their thoughts.
One of my favorite new songs is called "Rimas para seducir" and this song perfectly encapsulates how I feel. I will live up to it.
Comments